ARrrhhhhh.....

ARrrrhhhh......... why so unlucky 1.............why.....very unlucky...unlucky...unlucky in this few weeks...........New year is coming....hope all can pass through..............

ARRRhh.......

很奇怪的想法﹐我竟然想要取個不及格的分數。在考Midterm時﹐真的因為心裡作怪﹐考試時在睡覺﹐交了張白卷﹐老天﹐現在回想起﹐真的很後悔﹐那怎麼行﹖沒辦法了﹐還剩下兩個星期就FINAL考試了﹐希望能把它做好拉高分平均能及格吧。要加油了。不能再有那種想法了﹐後悔了

Merry Christmas

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生活過得很無聊﹐一整天都只是在看戲﹐就快要悶死了﹐想找個人說說話都沒有。還好﹐今天有朋友要和我借書﹐所以傍晚時就把書拿到宿舍去給她。還以為是她需要﹐原來是她朋友需要。無所謂啦﹐誰借都一樣﹐反正書放在那裡也沒用﹐因為在去年讀過了﹐還拿A。哈哈。。。

很無聊。。。很悶。。。

聖誕節回家去﹐沒有人留在這裡﹐所以我回家比較好。家裡嘛﹐什麼時候都是最好的。而且朋友說如果聖誕節我回去她要弄Tiramisu給我吃﹐真的太好了。

悶啊。。。

悶啊。。。。。

悶啊。。。。。。。

原來我才知道我和朋友的關係是這麼的僵。我不知道什麼原因﹐是我不夠好﹖還是我做錯了什麼﹖抑或是我的性格﹖﹖快受不了。真的很想回家算了。

不知道自己最近吃錯什麼藥﹐做事情老是提不起勁。從開學到現在﹐我不知道自己在過什麼活。讀書﹖﹖像個懶豬。上個星期的考試﹐書我讀了﹐但是臨時抱彿腳﹐第一次﹐我沒為考試擔心﹐沒為學業着想。我開始後悔﹐但已來不及。我知道自己不是什麼聰明的人﹐靠的只是這麼一點的努力﹐但﹐這次連這一點努力也沒有﹐我要怎麼過﹖不可以﹐我不能再這樣下去。即使這兩科對我來說高難度﹐因為是需要背的科目﹐我記憶力很差﹐我沒辦法背書﹐但﹐我還是要順利過關。該怎麼辦﹖開學到現在﹐心情都一直處于低落﹐我沒辦法提起勁做任何事情。朋友之間﹐我覺得沉默多了﹐沒話可談。我不太愛說話了。有時真的情願一個人﹐因為﹐兩個人一起時﹐不說話會很怪。

現在的心情﹐有如外面的天空﹐傾盆大雨﹐月亮躲起來了。

真的變了。

有誰明白﹖我的心情。

Cheer up..

Just talking phone with my mother. So weird suddenly called me. I thought she knows that i'm unhappy. Haha...When listening to my mother's voice, i feel that wanna cry, tears none stop walk in the eyes. But adult liao, can not cry. Sure..i no cry..haha.. I miss her so much, and she called me at the moment i felt unhappy. So warm.. But i cann't let her know that i feel unhappy because will make her worry me. However, mum~thanks for your support. I love you.

Just woke up from taking a nap, I think this is the time for me to concentrate on my studies. I not dare to ask and discuss with my friends about the studies, I scared to ask them. I scared when I ask will let them think me kiasu again. How terrible.. But tomorrow test already, I still not understand. How? Nobody knows how sad I am. I face problem in studies, I think there is not only me face the problem but others, but I just hope can discuss and ask what we should focus on for tomorrow that paper. I not dare to do so since I ask once and I was dismayed at the respond.

Just try my best to concentrate on my studies and try the best for the exam. I think that what I can do at this moment. Just leave few hours for me to prepare for the test. Try, just try my best.

Good Luck

" I should not think too much"

Thought

MIdterm tests are coming soon. The first midterm will be held on Monday afternoon. And there is 1.17am, Sunday now. There should have some points and plots about the chapters for the subject in my mind, but no for this time. Nothing is in my brain. Since this trimester started, I become lazy. Now already 4th week, I still haven’t start to touch my books, my notes, my tutorials. There is something wrong with me. So weird.. Really have no mood to study at this time.

Arrhh...

Just have a meeting with my adviser few days ago. So lucky he was my lecturer who taught me financial reporting and accounting I. He asked me to improve my cgpa for this trimester. If increasing continuously, I will graduate with first class grade. Wah...too high target and expectation from him, i may will disappointed my respectable lecturer. Stress...

What is public sector accounting? All talk about the government law. How come?? It is really difficult and tough for me. I totally have no interest on it. That’s why I still haven’t finish study until now. Why?? I can not understand the law. Lecturer and tutor told us that the midterm will not be so easy. Plus there were a lot of seniors failed this subject last year. So scary... I know that I should put more effort if I don’t want to fail it.

No mood to study. Just have mood to go for movie.

唸書的心情跑哪裡去了﹖考試近在眼前了﹐我知道我這次會考個不及格的分數﹐因為我沒辦法跟上班上的步驟。

Actually planning that go back hometown with my brother and sister. But the lecturer change the time for the test suddenly so I have stay back here for revision. Are you thinking I done it? I mean revision. If you guess yes then you are wrong, I m not. Friday went for movie, a new movie released on that day, Aero Flux. Saturday went to my friend’s house for cooking. I have no study at all. First time, really first time, I lost interest on studying. I think I give up to try my best for tests this time.

第一次﹐沒有了努力﹐沒有了衝勁﹐失去了目標﹐失去了本來的我。懶蟲病毒在體內開始散播。

Wow...

Besides, I am worry about my younger brother. He still hasn’t settled his National Service stuff. I try to check his session for him but failed. If his session is three then we still have time to apply for postpone the service so that it will not affect his study.

Exam~~~ Study hard~~ Even don’t like but that’s my responsible as a student. I should know it but failed to achieve it. For this just only moment...No more...I let myself be this only time, but there is no more chance in the future. I must, should know it. One time also should not be allowed. But I really give up this time. Give me one chance to do what I want to be.... Just be lazy~~~

God bless you

Take care

Good Luck for everyone who are going to sit for the test on monday.